Hello Tia,

I was reminded of you earlier today as I was deleting old eMail contacts and found your name there amongst the refuse.

A couple years ago I was talking with you pretty regularly about the possibility of us working on a project together but we just sorta faded away from each other... I get kinda caught up in school.

Anyway here I am, still an artist and there you are, even more hauntingly beautiful than I had remembered. I hope that you are still into modeling. You could be an invaluable asset to me as I progress through the my college projects. Not only that but if things go well we could both end up rich and infamous.

My portfolio is online at "www.dlcarlton.com" if you would like to see. Don't judge it too harshly though, I'm currently trying to convince my muse to work with me ;)

I look forward to hearing from you

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and I saw that you wrote something like, "commenting on my beauty is a waste of both of our time" lol, we should all be so fortunate as to be wearied by relentless suitors... of course I mentioned your beauty in my letter to you yesterday.

I'm writing to you today just so I can be certain that you're clear of my intent. I operate under no illusion that I am in any way a potential suitor for you.

However, I am a slave to the necessity of motivation. And your not-ugly face fills my mind with dreams of potential (the creative sort). I recognize the folly of all the great creatives who wallowed in romantic rejection from their muses. My heart is, of course, open to love but my mind and the ambition residing there wouldn't allow me to befoul our potential for working together with any lustful intentions or unsolicited advances.

That said, it is with the same love that I have for green (#CCFFCC), a pristine canvas, or Copic markers that I love your hideous face and captivating style.

I look forward to hearing back from you.

10.25.2009

ne0rotic: we should continue with our long conversation..
tiaschaeffer: hey yous
tiaschaeffer: sorry i'm reading smoething
ne0rotic: take your time - message me when youre un-busy.. I've "wanted you" these last couple of days - ha, I guess thats how you can say it
tiaschaeffer: lol?
ne0rotic: I've wanted to talk to you.. wanted you around..
ne0rotic: as I've told you before.. you're really awesome, and - lets just say I hang onto what I want or am curious about. So, yea, I'm curious and dont want you to go until my curiosity's satisfied

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benfry99: i wanna stay in and cuddle
benfry99: and kiss u
benfry99: :-(
tiaschaeffer: wtf, ugh i g2g
benfry99: whatever

(zee ex after i invited him to a party, fucking weirdo)

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Christopher

You've stolen me away from bad company....stolen my mind to collapsing under it's own weight, stolen my soul from being overtaken by the darkness surrounding me, and dare I say it? Slowly stealing my heart. So you see Tia...you've already stolen from me...in all the best ways possible so far.

It's all very confusing to me
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last guy i actually like for the first time in two point five yearsss. ugh but wtf, i swear i don't lead these ppl on. wtf. i like to have friends who are completely broken i think.

+++ random thougths @ 7:35 PM