"So where do we stand? I mean I know I like you and just want to keep getting to know you. I don't know exactly how you feel about me. Plus...it says your in a relationship with someone on here now. You...moved on?"
"sorry this might seem like a cheap shot, but it was the best i could come up w/... the answer to where we stand comes in the form of a question, if our relationship is limited to friends, is that fine?
< 3.14
NN"
"If that's what you really want....then yes... I guess that's it. But I just think we both should really think about this."
ugh, fuck... why does everyone always have to challenge me, i'm sooo tired of this.
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5:33 PM
11.15.2009
a bullet went through my heart last night and it had your name on it. I don't want you to feel like shit from me sayiing that to you. I just want you to know... your words were crushing. I've lost a lot of hope in not just me but the world around me.
gah, at least he understands how hopeless this shit is.
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1:24 AM
fuck, 2 seconds later, i get a essay of an email.
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1:20 AM
"i'll never tell you how i feel at this very moment"
ugh, so noble mr. superman syndrome, i'll pay respects w/ silence and walk away.. try to fucking save me again and i'll insure contact w/ me isn't an option.
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1:07 AM
11.13.2009
6 fucking guys(majority of which where sober?) have had convos w/ me this year while fucking drenching me in their tears(no exaggeration all together i've had more guys cry to me this year then i have alone total)... gah i'm trying so hard to not let this shit turn me into a crazy hedonist.
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12:39 PM
